I've been reading a lot of blogs lately that have been really inspiring to me--people seeing a need for change in their lives and how they are deciding to change the way they are living (diets, cleaning habits, routines, etc)
For me, it's been the "kick in the pants" that I've been needing...I have some changes I want to make in my every day life, but they aren't easy (well, I guess change never is easy!). They are changes I've tried to commit to over and over, yet they usually are short-lived.
Even with the best intentions most of my commitments usually don't last long...
--I want to wake up early to prepare my heart for the day, pray and read the Word.
--I want to memorize more scripture and practice having a constant prayer life.
--I want to make good choices to eat healthy foods.
--I want to be more intentional with my neighbors.
But what I have been learning is that my commitments usually don't last long, because I am the one in control of seeing them through.
The ball is always in "my court" and so when I don't feel like doing something...well, I just don't do it.
My good intentions are usually pushed aside when I am feeling extra sleepy, super busy, lazy and selfish (which happens more often than I'd like to admit!).
This past Sunday our pastor talked about surrender...and I realized, THAT has been my missing link!!!
"COMMITMENT IS NORMALLY CONNECTED
TO CIRCUMSTANCES AND UNDERSTANDING.
SURRENDER IS CONNECTED TO LORDSHIP."
Surrendering my commitments to my Savior, giving HIM control of my "good intentions" and falling back on Him when I "just don't feel like it"...
So I've been trying this week anew--
--Surrendering my mornings to Him
--Surrendering my thought life to Him
--Surrendering my body and choices to Him
--Surrendering my free time to Him
So, if you've been finding yourself in the same hopeless cycle with your commitments as I have, whether it's food, devotions, church attendance, behavior or whatever, I'd encourage you to surrender it to the Lord. Don't just make a commitment and then strive for it alone...It's so refreshing to follow through in His power and not rely on our own weak will power!
"Failure, frustration and disappointment are the legacy of commitment, because it is always about me and depends entirely on me to achieve some outcome. Surrender takes 'me' out of the equation. As I heard a person once say, 'When I began to follow Christ, I resigned as General Manager of My World.'"
-From Absolute Surrender by Andrew Murray
Lord, this week is yours. I surrender my mornings, my homeschooling and my parenting to you. They are yours. When I feel like taking the easy way out, I will carry through, but only by your strength. I will work as unto You...not to please myself or my resolutions, not to check something off a list, not to pat myself on the back. Instead, I'll do it to honor you...the Giver of my life and all that I have and do! I am surrendered.